BEHIND THE LENS
My name is Sarah, I love cats, music and photography. I also have a highly misunderstood condition called Borderline Personality Disorder.
Having BPD is hugely painful – you lead a chaotic lifestyle full of turmoil, unrest and despair. However I think I have my extreme emotions to thank for my creativity.
Photography is cathartic and has probably saved my life.
Photography in my life
It fascinates me how ever since I started taking photos I’ve seen the world in a whole new sense. Most of the time everywhere I go I see things how I would as if I was staring through a camera lens, I ‘frame’ shots in my head, look for colours, patterns, lines, compositions. Look for bizarreness and eccentricity. I like to think I see beauty in objects other people don’t even look at once, let alone twice. Quirky and abstract shots captivate me, they make people question their perception of what they believe they are looking at. Photography can help you invent a construed fantasy world. It can lead the eye and the mind to new depths and whole new levels.
Macro photography allows us to see the world in a whole new way, at the micro scale and captures things the human eye doesn’t normally see and then in turn the eye captures the mind and questions belief.
Sequential Idealization and devaluation of life and our very being: I feel love and hate towards life, the world and everything in it all at the same time. I love the world for existing and giving me beautiful things to take photos of but I hate life because of all the pain and suffering it brings with it.
Subjectivity and objectivity: Reflections, perceptions and interpretations mesmerize me. What one person conceives as beautiful may disturb others, conversely beauty is captured in the eye of the beholder. If two people were given the task of taking a photo of the same object, their interpretation and representation would probably be completely different.
Photography is about noticing things, its about being in the right place at the right time (and having your camera with you!!).